What kind of art do I want to make?

What kind of art do I want to make?

I think it an important question, that I can't seem to answer and it making this whole art class thing so hard for me. 1. you don't have assignment in this class, it all your idea and I'm just the worst at that. 2. I'm so scared about the criteria, the rubric, what IB gona think etc, what is Cornell gona think.....etc.. it making this a horrible experience. I thought this would be some stress relieve, but this class is the most difficult class for me.

So today I decide I'm just going to not care right now and think about what is it that I want.

I once told Mr. Cornell, I have no idea what to do, I'm not particularly passionate about anything and I just want to do a whole bunch of random stuff. Cornell told me maybe that what I should do. It an advice I never took.

I really ask myself today what is it that I consider art? Well to me art is simply thing that are artistically appealing to me. I know that super vague and if this was TOK i would fail but I just dont care about that right now. That is the definition that may just pull me of this miserable void. One of the biggest problem with art is I always feel that I have to invent some meaning to it that will make it all deep and suitable to turn in. I just feel that, that is all lie. Why can't I just make thing just because it look nice. Sure, there must be some psychological reason I choose to do what I do, but why must I justify myself?

I just want to do something fun, that look good, and doesn't require a lot of technical skill (becasue I have none)  and no I don't think it begin lazy, some DIY stuff are really cool too and that is just want I want to do.